Lazy vs Depression

What happens to a hypochondriac, introvert during a pandemic with a history of depression? Well you get me struggling with the dark comfort that depression sometimes offers. Today was a perfect sunny 88 degrees and I had to force myself to take a shower, put on semi clean clothing to pick up a Walmart curbside…

Sad Mother’s Day

One thing everyone has or had is a mother, so Mother’s Day is one of those holidays that everyone loves to celebrate.   Even when your mother has passed, it can be sad but still a celebration to the woman who gave you life. What about when you are estranged from your mother?  Mother’s Day is…

How are YOU doing?

As we enter into week forever of the pandemic, I want to ask “How are you doing?”. For me I miss my routine.  Early morning workout, getting the kids off to school, work, cooking dinner and relaxing with either a book or television in the evening.  In other words, I missed being busy!  But do…

Day 28

Unlike the movie, 28 Days Later, day 28 of stay orders is pretty uneventful.  By now I am no longer glued to CNN/MSNBC 24 hours everyday all day.  I’ve gone back to diversifying my news sources.  I am listening to reliable podcasts, reading news papers (well, on my iPad), checking the CDC website for updates….

Hot Fucking Flashes

The change aka menopause has taken up residence in my life. I knew there was a chance menopause early due to a partial hysterectomy in 2014. In 2018, I thought I was starting because I was experiencing hot flashes. My doctor ran a test that determined my “levels” are still in a normal range. But…

COVID-19 Corona and Rona

Day 16 Depending where you are in the world and who you work for, will determine what your day count.  For me and my family in Gwinnett, we are on day 16.  As of Saturday, Gwinnett County is under a “stay-at-home” order until April 13th.  Basically officials has limited all activity to essential business…  Law…

Unconditional Love

Have you ever thought about the first time you heard the term, “unconditional love” or did you experience it before knowing what it was?  I remember hearing the term and at first thinking I never experienced it, but then with further thought I realized that there isn’t only one way to experience the concept of…

What I Learned Year One

Starting Delibertly Dope with my best friend has been a real adventure. We started it, because for years we both talked about writing a book about our lives and never moved forwarded with anything purposeful. Then we talked about our individual blogs, I think I kind of invited myself to participate in with her on…

Pancake Sundays

My journey to find a spiritual home started when I was a kid living with my mother in Chicago.  We would visit different churches of different denominations.  Around 1985 my mother visited a Christian Science Church, I continued to attend even when I left St. Louis and was living in New York with my grandparents,…